I am going to be completely honest with you all. I have been struggling a bit with not feeling heard and loved. In my head, I know that I am, but I overthink things. I feel like I do not belong and that my voice does not matter. Which are complete lies from the enemy. I know that they are lies, but I still find myself feeding into them. I find myself trying to put up walls again when they do not need to be put up. Right as I am in a super intimate time with God, this comes around. This is not a coincidence. The enemy would like nothing more than for me to overthink and get in my head. When I am there, I am not thinking about God, which distracts me from the intimate time. I have been working through believing lies in my life that I thought had been broken down. I am learning to give it up to God and depend more on him. I am also learning that the enemy will keep trying to hold lies over me, but they do not have power in Jesus’ name. I can speak truths over myself, and the more I do that, the more I believe it. As I lean into God more and what he says, the lies will be like nothing.
With struggling with feeling heard and loved, God reminded me of something. Even when I don’t feel loved or heard here…I will always be loved and heard by God. He always wants to listen to me and always loves me. He wants to have sweet conversations when it feels like no one wants to. He loves me so well and hears me like no other. When struggling with not feeling loved, heard, or seen, I encourage you to lean into God. He has so much to say about you and wants to hug you. He wants to say: my dear child, I hear you, I love you, I see you, I choose you; I want an intimate relationship with you; come to me, my sweet child. As Matthew 11:28-30 says, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” I encourage you to go to God with your hurts and give it to him. Listen to his voice and watch as he fills you with many truths. Your heart may be hurting right now. You may feel like no one understands you, hears you, sees you, or loves you. But know that you are. God is here for you and wants you to come to him.
